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ABOUT
Lan Shu (also known as CeCe on Youtube) is a Spiritual Life Coach and a Certified Intuitive Reader. She is also a Claircognizant, Psychometric and Telepathic Empath that was blessed with both an analytical and an intuitive mind.
While growing up, she struggled with depression, an eating disorder and was mentally & physically abused. Over the last two years, she has experienced tremendous transformations including emotional healing, physical detoxification, mind-body-soul integration, and soul retrievals. She felt like a completely different person on so many levels. She compares her experiences to the metamorphosis of a butterfly because she was once overwhelmed, lost, and anxious in a dark cocoon---- but now she sees the Light. She has transformed into this beautiful & powerful being from the inside out; she feels bliss & compassion; and best of all, she feels a sense of completion because she has finally embraced her divinity within and accepts that as her TRUE NATURE.
She had a great job and prospects in the Commercial Real Estate Industry but she decided to leave the corporate world to fulfill her true Life Purpose ---- spreading the divine messages of Love, Light and Empowerment and to help humanity shift into a higher existence & consciousness.
She feels extremely humbled and blessed to be able to experience people in the truth of their glory, and to share her path and perspective of reconciling the old way of being human with one's DIVINE nature.
Through her services, she wishes to share what she has learned & realized in life and help her clients remove & transmute any physical, mental, emotional and spiritual blocks. The ultimate goal is to lead her clients through a journey to LOVE. HEAL. TRANSFORM!
When you're down, looking up into the sky... It will soothe your mind and reconnect you with your soul essence, because the sky is a proof of how BIG and POWERFUL you truly ARE!
MY JOURNEY to LOVE.HEAL.TRANSFORM
MY STORY
The 'COCOON'
I was born and raised in a non-religious family in China. As a little child, I was full of life, imagination and adventurous spirits. I saw life & personality in everything around me including nature and objects...I was easily amazed. I also had great compassion for animals. I would cry and perform "ceremonies" to bury the dead bugs that other people killed.
For a while, I wasn't talking much because I was communicating with everyone telepathically. My preschool teacher finally brought this issue up to my parents and they arranged for me to become the monitor of the class so I would have to speak up in order to "discipline" the class. I used to see colors around my teacher's head; I would always rub or blink my eyes so the colors would disappear. I thought there was something wrong with me. That was the beginning of my suppressing these multidimensional perceptions. Despite my conscious efforts, I would still have predictive dreams where the same events in my dream would happen the next day. I would astral travel almost every night (I didn't know what it was back then, but looking back I see it very clearly that I was traveling in other realms). One night, I woke up at around 3:00 am. I sat up in my bed and saw a 6-foot-tall "golden light being" flowing toward me. I wasn't scared. Instead I tried to reach for it, but it disappeared very abruptly. All I could sense was love and compassion from this "being" that had a feminine energy. I believe she was my Guardian Angel who has saved me from many near-death encounters in the years to come.
Unlike most people around me, I have always had an innate knowing of the power of our consciousness and life beyond this realm. That knowing made me feel invincible and blissful! However, this fun and adventurous childhood didn't last for long. As soon as I went to middle school, my life was condensed into three things: Eat, Study and Sleep. I wasn't allowed to develop my interests and talents in music and art because my dad told me those careers were short-lived. Just like most parents in China, my parents loved me and pushed me in the direction that they felt was best for me. I could sense the "spark" in me started to become dull and muted because I wasn't allowed to fully embody the desires and expressions of my being. Instead I was expected to just follow orders given in school and at home.
In addition, I witnessed a lot of verbal and physical abuses between my dad and my sister. Being extremely empathic, I would pick up so much pain and suffering from my family members. In addition, I had to deal with my own sorrow, pain and suffering from also being physically & emotionally abused. I did not grasp the magnitude of the pain I was in because I became acclimated to it in order to survive and function each day. My mom worked full time and was also expected to take care of the household, so we were pretty emotionally distant from each other as she was coping with all of her responsibilities. I had no one to comfort me other than my stuffed animals who were very much alive in my mind. I knew my guardian angels were speaking to me through them. I had many other traumatic experiences while I was growing up including witnessing my favorite stuffed bear being torn into pieces by my dad because I accidentally damaged something he was working on. That bear meant more to me than anything in the world and I was willing to take the torment in her place. Part of me "died" that day... To numb my senses, I became addicted to junk food, snacks, horror movies and meat. By the time I went to high school, the stress from school and my father just overwhelmed me. I became very depressed and even suicidal. The funny thing was that even during the darkest period of my life, I knew I could "kill" myself just by intentionally withdrawing my consciousness from my body.
Like most teenagers, I was also struggling with self-image issues and an eating disorders (e.g. I would take diet pills, starve myself for a few days, and then switch to binge eating). I had always been very active in class because that is the only time I could voice my opinion and be validated. However, my classmates would feel threatened by my performance and they would verbally abuse me or talk about me behind my back just because I was so different from them. I pretended that I didn't care but the reality was that the pain & suffering of being denied of my own free-will totally overshadowed any pain from being verbally bullied. My school performances were negatively impacted and I didn't end up going to the Top University in China as my dad had wished for (well, it wasn't what I wanted anyway).
I felt my heart closing up and my soul splitting off into fragments. Fortunately, that innate knowing always stayed with me, which was often perceived as "optimism" by other people. Little did they know, that "optimism" was simply a "masking and surviving mechanism" for me.
The "COCOON"
The "METAMORPHOSIS"
The 'METAMORPHOSIS'
The metamorphosis took many stages. The first stage happened when I left home to study at a private foreign language university. I was finally in charge of my own life schedules, even though I was still financially dependent on my parents. My school performance skyrocketed and I finally was able to appreciate all the things my parents had done for me despite their rules and restrictions. However, the eating disorder still continued due to my self-image issues. The second stage happened when I met my soul mate (who is my husband now) while I was still in college. We met through a language-learning site. Many people online can be very superficial but he was different. We started writing long emails daily, sending each other music, articles... all pure soul expressions. I felt a true love connection for the first time! It freed my soul to a great degree because "this man loves me for who I am". I was respected and treasured as a woman. My decisions and thoughts were heard and supported by him. I felt like a bird being set free for the first time!
I came to the U.S. in late 2009 and we were married a few months later. My very first venture was starting my Beauty & Fashion youtube channel PandorasPalette. I knew my channel would become a "pandora's box", for you never know what would be inside unless you open it. I taught myself about scripting, filming, editing and all the other social media skills. Within two years, my channel had over 10,000 subscribers, which was considered an amazing growth at the time. Meanwhile, we decided to that I should go back to school to assimilate better into the western culture. Even though I had to start with a community college due to my lack of academic background in the U.S., I loved my school experiences.I was literally blossoming and realizing all of my long-suppressed potentials. I was the top student in almost every class I took here in America. At the time, I could have chosen any University I wanted to attend, but I decided to stay local because of the convenience of the location and so I wouldn't have to be apart from my husband. I didn't have my father pressuring me to study or asking me about my grades. This time I excelled on my own terms. Despite my academic success, I felt something else was shifting in me... While making youtube videos, I had to put on thick makeup or wear special clothes to look beautiful. I felt like I had lost myself all over again. I decided to put my channel on "hold" and focus on school and self-development.
I rediscovered and reconnected with my psychic gifts after an interesting conversation with one classmate. She asked me why I would always seem to know what the professor was asking for in a question. Quite honestly, I had never thought about that. It came to me like a second nature, a knowing. I thought everyone had that same ability. She told me not everyone had it and I might be a psychic. When I came back home, I immediately Googled the word and I felt connected with all the characteristics. All of the mystic experiences I had as a child finally made more sense to me. In Fall 2013, I had to go to an emergency room because of a sudden, prolonged and severe heart-burn & chest pain. I felt scared and hopeless while laying in the hospital bed. The medication didn't work on me and I was forced to live on a very restricted diet. In the mean time, I also started to see "11:11" everywhere I went. I did some research and found out that seeing 11:11 was one of the signs of a spiritual awakening. I started obsessively searching and reading anything I could find regarding spiritual topics. It was like opening the gate of my consciousness and the spark in me began to come back.
Soon, school became a fun and effortless game to me. I spent more time reading about spirituality than studying. By the time I graduated (Summa Cum Laude), I had won over 30 scholarships and awards. All was well, but the desire to seek perfection, approval, and accumulate materialistic possessions still lingered in my being. I was taught as a child that I had to be "perfect" to earn approval and rewards. I had to earn my worthiness, love and happiness.
When I finally managed to quiet my busy and analytical mind, I began to receive clear guidances from Jesus Christ, my spirit guides and Angels. As a heavy meat eater for over 27 years, I became a Pescatarian almost over night (presently, I enjoy a 80% raw + 20% cooked vegan diet). The heart-burn and chest pain also "magically" went away. I had never felt so healthy, clear-thinking and happy in my life.
The transformations have continued ever since then. I started drinking TONS of water and eating lots of fresh fruits & vegetables to assist with the detoxification of the body. I became more in tune with my body's needs. I would hear the specific things that my body needed at the time. I discovered crystals and singing bowls. I started seeing light energies in the air, orbs, and auras. I started hearing tones, frequencies, and even celestial voices before I went to bed each night. My dreams became VERY vivid and colorful. I also started my astral journeys again where I saw my spirit guides, spirit animals, ascended masters, unicorns, and other realms. I also lost interest in material possessions and heavy makeup. I started to love myself for who I am. I realized that happiness resides within!
The journey of transformation was not always "glitz and glam". I had to deal with a lot of "pain" as a result of the physical and emotional healing. I had to come to peace with who I used to be. I had to learn to forgive a lot of people that hurt or betrayed me in the past. I also had to find my true voice and learn to speak from my heart center - a place of love and compassion! I became more open about myself. It feels like a process of shedding the old layers & disguises while integrating more of my authentic self.
The 'BUTTERFLY'
After being trapped in a dark cocoon for so long and undergoing tremendous transformations, the BUTTERFLY was finally "born"... I was no longer a caterpillar because I finally became an embodiment of my TRUE, DIVINE nature!
I felt loved, liberated, bliss and intense gratitude!
I stopped seeking solely externally, for I realized that all the answers are already within me.
My life is full of magical moments of synchronicities and divine cooperations.
I learned that our true SELF exists separately from our roles, stories, struggles and pain.
I realized that TRUE LOVE has no Boundary and no Limit!
I learned to be at peace with what IS instead of fighting with anything that is not of my expectations.
I have more compassion for other people's problems and behaviors.
I stopped taking everything so seriously because life is supposed to be a fun adventure for our spirits and consciousness.
I started taking control of my life and taking responsibility for the outcome of my own decisions.
I no longer feel the need to prove to anyone of my worthiness because I am inherently worthy of love and joy just like every one of YOU.
I no longer let other people or things determine my state of happiness because I found my true happiness within!
I started to realize that the people that are shunned the most by society are the very ones that need love, compassion and forgiveness the most.
I started to see that other people are part of ME. We are like streams of a vast Ocean - we are both the Stream AND the Ocean.
I finally reconnected my Mind, Body and Soul. I treasure and honor my heart's desires!
I stopped letting greed and fear run my life, but instead, everything I do or say will come from my core, from Love & Light.
I knew the corporate world wasn't for me... that my life purpose was to become a messenger of Love, Light and Joy.
I knew I had to experience certain struggles and pain in my life in order to become Who I AM.
Through the realization of my True Self, I can empower others to be on a journey to LOVE. HEATL. TRANSFORM.
The journey of the Caterpillar ended, but the journey of the Butterfly just got started! I know my healing and transformation will never cease, for my consciousness will continue to learn, improve, and expand. That's the beauty of life itself, isn't it? That's the purest form and expression of SELF-LOVE. After all, it is out of the tremendous SELF-LOVE from the Divine Source (Creator or God) that the whole existence came to BEING.
THANKS for taking your time to get to know me more. No matter where you are in life, you can start the change TODAY. Just like the Rainbow only appears after a big storm. The darkest moments in your life are there to inspire you to seek the LIGHT. NOW, Let US embark on YOUR healing and transformation journey TOGETHER!
Lan Shu
The "BUTTERFLY"
"Self-love is not a selfish act. We are all connected to all that there is, so any act of self-love will not only elevate those around you but also everything in existence. When you love yourself, you will not only learn to love others better, but also illuminate the whole world with LOVE"
Lan Shu
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